Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Anxious

Tonight marks the first night of classes for the quarter. I am anxious. In fact, I am much more nervous than I typically am. The reasoning for the same remains a bit baffling to me. It is an absolute mystery.

Over the past several nights, I've had dreams about school: Dreams about going to the wrong classroom, of forgetting the syllabus, of showing up on the wrong night. Today I am anxious. I am nauseous. I feel like I have a fever. I suspect I could pass out at any moment.

It is all pretty ridiculous.

The fact is that I have taught the exact class numerous times before. I am a decent instructor. A majority of my students adore me.

I need to chill and I will.

I just hope it is soon.

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